if love...

if love is like footsteps in the desert
i will always follow you even if i have to get burned

if love is like wings of a bird
i will fly to you right now no matter what the risks are

*just an abstract thought from me

Give Me a Chance

i wanna post another entry in indonesian... :D i just want all my readers to understand because what's the point of reading my entries without knowing every single word??

[hehe alesan lagi... jago ngeles ya gw! maklum mantan supir bajay... :D]

OKAY! CAN U HANDLE MY TRUTH? [ngikutin kata2nya britney spears...]

gw bikin "Give Me a Chance" tahun lalu. sebenernya lagu ini adalah curhatan gw, yang sebentar lagi mau gw ceritain lewat blog ini. hehe... ceritanya cukup menyedihkan, terutama buat gw. hiks2... [halah..]

BEGINI CERITANYA...

beberapa tahun yang lalu, gw kenalan sama seorang cewe yang bernama kartika [namanya gw samarin ya..]. gw ga tau knp tapi dari awal gw berjabat tangan sama dia, gw udah langsung suka. gw itu orang yg susah jatuh cinta; tapi sekalinya jatuh cinta, it will last forever! huahaha lebay...

gw juga adalah orang yang sangat instinktif, jadi sebagian besar tindakan gw mengikuti insting gw. gw juga percaya sama "love at the first sight". cinta yang sebenernya itu ga perlu diusahakan. tanpa ada usaha apapun, lo udah jatuh cinta. gw percaya bgt sama itu.

back to the story. waktu terus berjalan, tadinya kartika ngga suka sama gw. tapi gw gigih. namanya juga usaha... akhirnya dia suka sama gw! [bukannya ge-er, gw taunya juga dari temen gw yg baru dicurhatin kartika]. kalo misalnya sekarang dia ditanya dan dia bilang "gw ga pernah suka sama bintang", gw jamin 100% itu boong. itu cuma gengsi...

tapi walaupun suka sama suka, gw ga pernah jadian sama dia. alesannya banyak lah tapi ga mungkin gw ceritain disini. ini bukan alesan yg mengada-ada loh. gw bukan orang kayak gitu. jadi waktu terus berjalan dan posisi kartika buat gw adalah temen telfon dan temen jalan yang deket banget. SIALNYA, beberapa waktu kemudian, ada orang yang deketin kartika dan berhasil membuat kartika jatuh hati... mereka berdua akhirnya pacaran. sialnya, gw baru tau setelah mereka berdua udah jadian. damn! shit really happens, man...

gw masih setia nungguin kartika. gw berharap mereka putus. kalo mereka putus, gw ga akan nyia2in kesempatan lagi. lo semua tau berapa lama gw nunggu?? SATU SETENGAH TAHUN!!! itu waktu yang lama banget buat gw! akhirnya gw capek sendiri dan gw memutuskan untuk ngelupain dia. untung gw memutuskan itu... soalnya sampe hari ini, mereka masih jadian dan itu udah tiga tahun lebih...

banyak lah yg gw bikin untuk dapetin kartika dari cowoknya tapi gagal... cowoknya dia ngajakin gw berantem gara-gara dia bilang gw ga menghargai hubungan dia sama kartika. brantem gara2 cewek?? come on, man! itu adalah hal yg ngga bgt buat gw... yaudah gw terima ajakan dia. gw bilang gw minta nomor telepon dia supaya gw bisa telfon dan atur waktu mau ketemu dimana. lo tau apa yang dia bilang? "kita selesain masalah ini lewat email aja." HHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH?????? udah nantangin berantem, terus bilang "kita selesain lewat email"??? yg bener aja... cuman yaudahlah gw ngertiin aja. cowoknya ini lebih muda dua thn dari gw [masih abg], jadi ga gw anggep. malu juga gw berantem sama dia. masalah cewek lagi...

INTI DARI CERITA GW

sampe saat ini, kartika masih dalam pelukan cowok itu. hhhmm gw angkat topi lah buat mereka, walaupun sebenernya gw agak sedih... lagipula gw udah ikhlasin kok.

pelajaran yg gw dapet adalah gw ga akan mau lagi nunggu lama2 untuk seorang cewe yang udah punya cowok. gw pernah nunggu satu setengah tahun dan itu ga akan terulang! nunggu sebulan aja juga gw pasti ga mau... ya begitulah cerita gw... :D gw akhirin dengan kata2 dari reff lagu ini yaa...

would you, please,
give me a chance
to tell you i love you
please don't hide away
don't hide away from me

give me a chance
to show you i love you
please don't hide away
don't hide away from me

*lyrics written by elia bintang on july 2007

happy valentine

happy valentine's day to anyone who reads my blog! prepare urself to have a dinner or to give a flower to your lover tomorrow ;)

if you have no idea about where to celebrate valentine, just celebrate VALENTINE WITH ME. come to soho cilandak town square on thursday february 14th at 8 P.M. there will be LIVE MUSIC PERFORMANCE BY ME. it will be good for u who have a lover or u who are lonely n sad ;)

[hihihi promosi...]

okay? i hope u can come n see me singing n do my thing. once again, HAPPY VALENTINE! love u all...

shit! i'm in love...

history repeats itself. doesn't it? again i fall in love with someone in relationship... =( i'm actually not really disappointed because she gives me a very nice response, which means we tend to like each other. hehe... but u know, i just can't express myself the way i normally do because she has a boyfriend. sometimes she's with her boyfriend when i call her. believe me it's not as simple as it sounds!

why there's no beautiful girl n still single in this world? every beautiful girl has a partner. so the only way to get a beautiful girl is waiting until she breaks up with her boyfriend... how if i wait too long n they're still together? hhhh... i think too much, man. but i think that's the way it is. my friends who have a beautiful girlfriend waited for some time until the girl broke up with her previous partner.

few days ago, i called her after three days of no communication. when i called her, she's with her boyfriend, so i just called her for five minutes. i was stressed out because i actually missed her! hehe... [dangdut bener ya gw...] u know what i did? i listened to some music with my earphone and turned the volume so high. if i didn't use my earphone, everyone in my house will hear that very fucking LOUD sound... i did it for three hours! tried to run away from reality... truth sucks! haha...

well, i also had some sweet moments with her. i kept reading some of her sweet sms... [makin dangdut deh gw...] i kept thinking of the sweet moments we've had... she's gonna be mine, man! i just have to be patient... yeah! she's gonna be mine!

mom...

she looks, dresses, and sings like a celebrity. she would be the best female singer in this country if still young. you should go karaoke with her n you'll know how good she is. she sings better than titi dj, dresses up better than krisdayanti, n looks better than ruth sahanaya... so, it will bring her to the top if she's a singer. =)

she turns 42 this year but still looks like 24. everybody thinks she's my sister because she looks much younger than her age. it offends me a lil' bit because i'm sure i don't look that old... =)

she's my friend n also a partner in crime. =) we do things secretly together... i'm quite sure that i know her dark side. but i'm very sure that she doesn't know mine... =)

she's the person i love the most until i turn 27... because i will get married when i turn 27 and will love my wife the most... =) haha just kidding...

this is the last year i can meet her everyday because i will move out from the house before i turn 22. she's sad when i told her about it and she almost cried... she said my room will not be occupied by anyone and if she moves to another house, she will make one room for me so i can sleep there anytime i want... so sweet... =)

my mom is everything for me... i will kill anyone who messes up with her. =) haha... i love you, mom! i love u... =)